Am i really afraid of You

Why am I all of a sudden afraid of you?
I ask as I gaze into the sky so blue

Am I scared that you can take away everything Ive hoped for?
These thoughts race through my mind and I find it impossible to ignore

I hear all the laughter and memories that once occurred
But they are washed out as I become unsure

Unsure that I cant hang on eternally
And all this is just temporary

It hits me so hard
And I find myself caught off guard

I know its true
As I sit here praying to You

Im just so afraid youll take it all away
If I make a mistake and somehow cant pay

God I dont wanna be afraid and I dont wanna hang on
I know Ill still live on and everything wont really be gone

But I keep forgetting that even after this life Im not done
Theres a whole new life that has already begun

When I get up there I can sit with You
And finally get to tell you face to face how much I love You

Help me not be afraid to let go
And see beyond what I feel or know

I cant understand why I should be afraid
Because in the end I look forward to meeting You someday

If I die its alright
I will then walk and live forever in your light