Torture

Sitting here in my room
with nothing at all to do
My mind keeps on wandering
and it always seems to find you

I try to keep it away from you
cause the thought only brings tears
of how I'm going to miss seeing you
Oh these months are gonna feel like years

I never told you how I felt
so I guess this is all my doing
because of me I am alone
and all I can do is boohooing

But what am I to do now
I guess I have two decisions
I can sit and watch you live your life
or I could pull the trigger and end my vision