Waiting for a dream

I know this is just blabber but this means everything to me. so rate me a one, i don't care. if someone actually understood this, you don't know how happy you'll make me.

you're not coming back
to me, ever again.
i miss you too much.
every second of every day
that i spent with you
were the best moments
of my entire existence.
i live so i can sleep
so that i can see you
in my reoccurring dream.
so foggy and distant
you're blurry yet vivid.
i can't tell whether
you were real or fake
but all i know is that
you're a memory
my favorite memory
that i will never forget
you saved me
you were my hero
you're still my hero
you keep me holding on
onto everything
that i ever fought for
onto everything
that ever mattered.
you help me hold onto
a glimpse of hope.
maybe you're not a dream
maybe this is the dream
or maybe a nightmare
maybe I'll wake up
and realize it all
what if you are a dream?
then I'll close my eyes.
and sleep forever.
I'll wait for you
to reappear suddenly
it might be too late
but hey
I'll turn back time
for you.