Depression

I have depression
i blame my friends and family
i will break down crying
i will sit down
and start to cut
I'll start cutting away at my wrist
i hate how i act when i am depressed
because when i am I'll act really stupid
and I'll go do other things that are stupid
I'll start flipping out on people
also i won't want contact with others at all
so when i am depressed i feel like i shouldn't be here at all
my depression really hurts my friends and family

(the only way for me not to be that upset is to talk to people and to write about how i feel so if you can please leave me something to look at it will make it better for me)