Dont ask if Im ok...(Really Long)

You come to me everyday,
And I reply 'Im fine'
To the typical question,
Each and every time.

The days go by,
The weeks leave too,
And yet you dont see
how I feel for you.

One late school day
Like all the rest,
You ask for help, not knowing,
That the topic, I would detest.

But I barely hear you
As I stair in your eyes
Their crystal blue color
Seems to match the sky.

Your long dark hair,
Resembles the night,
Reminding me of my bruise
From one special fight.

His broken nose
Says so much more
Of that one time
He called you a wh***

Now your sitting here
Explaining to me
How its his girl
You want to be

My smile fades,
And my heart shatters
But her selfish thoughts
Are all that matter.

'Are you alright?
You just got pale.'
She said to me
To no avail.

'Dont worry. Im fine'
I said walking away.
All she said was
'Ill see you later ok?'

The final bell rings.
Its time to go home.
I get up mumbling
Things in a soft tone.

As I walk in the house
I write a short letter,
On how everything
will some be better.

I pulled out a bullet
And caved out her name.
'Lets see who will get
The last laugh in this game.'

Without a word,
I locked the door,
I pull out a hand gun,
And finally lay on the floor.

As I prepared
For eternal silent sleep,
I counted all the people
Who might just weep.

While thinking of her,
I wiped away my last tear.
I pulled the trigger
Without any fear.

Later that day,
My deed is found.
Now I quietly rest
Six feet under ground.

The note I wrote
Was only for her.
But as she reads it,
Its all a big blur.

'You were always
Very sweet and kind.
I guess I got the illusion
That I could make you mine.'

'Now Ill be nice...
Here is a clue.
The last thing that ran
though my head was you.'

She looks startled
And very confused.
A tiny part of her
Even feels used.

But as she reached the end,
She starts to cry.
It simply reads,
'P.S Girl...Im Fine.'