This is how i feel

This is how i feel
cant make it go away
some one please just tell me
how I'm supposed to feel
he tells me he loves me
i believe its true
but for some reason
i don't know what to do
because my life is so trashed
don't know what path to choose
because in the end ill still
end up with and loving u
u treat me the best
but in the end its true
baby u just have no clue
on how I'm so depressed
so please look into my eyes
and tell me what u see
look at me and tell me u love me
most of my friends are fake
they lie and screw around
most of my friends are fake
and they are never around
screw living life
and screw being here
your lucky u have found me
you've made my pain disappear
u loving me
is what keeps me alive
so if i lost your love
id slowly start to die
u dint even know
how much u mean to me
u mean the world and every thing
u mean so much to me
some people i know
have hurt me so bad
because they are what have made my life so trashed
i cant do it any more
i really can not stay
i know u dint want to lose me
but this is what i say
baby please hold me
all through th night
and in the morning when u wake please tell me good bye
because i wont awake with u
ill be going to the sky
and then ill fall back down to hell
and roast in his oven
because i don't deserve to leave
my only wish is that your happy
i hope u find some one new
some one to take my place
and marry her one day
and have my grace
i hope u and her die together
in each others arms
because baby i want u to be happy when I'm gone
don't ever think about me
or how u could've helped
because baby this was coming
i knew one day wed be through
i knew that id leave u
and leave this earth as well
but baby please don't be sad
go find another girl to love
to be with and to love
to hold and hug
and cherish forever
don't think about me
i don't want to see u cry
because i don't want to see u hurt
even though i know losing me has hurt u lot
but baby think about it
it was for the best
me leaving this earth
and baby one day ill see u again
maybe in the pits of hell
but maybe by the Golden gates
and ill be so happy when your with me again and we can be with each other and love again
I'm living life until it ends and even when it ends ill still be loving u