The Person I Hate

Slowly your lips suck the life from me, i'm begging for a way out.
gasping for breath in my apologies, feeling fear and unmasked doubt.

regretful words are haunting me, my eyes bleed black with fright.
I'm so tired of hurting myself to convince you that i'm alright.

this pain alone will just destroy me as i race into my death.
bleeding promises that i can never keep, taking my last breath.

I'll unmask you in the darkness, the truth is what i fear.
failing miserably at telling you this, i can't shed a single tear.

the veil across my face hides all the bitterness and lies.
ignore my happy ending and deafen me with my own cries.

the object of your affection isn't who you think she is.
hopeless eyes can't look at you, a broken heart can't forgive.

'i'm sorry' isn't good enough, 'i love you' isn't real.
hating every part of this is what i truly feel.

no laughter will be ringing out beneath my facade of false hope.
no smile will be glistening to help me try to cope.

i will never be OK, there's nothing left to try.
there's no cure for a broken soul, i can't even convince myself to cry.

nervousness is just a side effect of keeping this from you.
the violent shaking of my body is all that i can do.

i rely on my anger just to help me to survive.
the ongoing battle inside of me, it's a wonder i'm still alive.

believe the news i'm telling you, i'm really not alright.
there's just no use in trying to win this endless fight.

face to face with regret, i attempt to unmask my enemy.
hate surges through my body when i realize the person I hate is me.