Time evolves
Past becomes present and future
What was present becomes past and disappears
I find myself sitting down thinking about everything.
Past tells me not to love you.
Lessons learnt tell me not to fall for you.
Logic tells me not want you
not to need you
Yet I find myself unable to be without you.
I find myself needing you.
You were a distant and painful memory.
Life had moved on even though those memories of you lingered.
You were there
but you werent there.
I tried to forget you
Now youre here
telling me you need me
Telling me you love me
I want you so bad.
I need you so much.
More than you could possibly know
My body aches for you in ways you could never understand.
I love you
I love you
But I
Am
Afraid
Of
You
I give you my heart.
I put trust in you when seemingly I have no reason to at all,
And I find myself wondering if youll break me again.
I find myself wondering if youll cause me sleepless nights
Cause me pain like I have never been capable to even fathom.
I find myself praying youll never break my heart.
I find myself hoping that you really are the one.
How could I fear your love or possible lack of it so much,
And yet still give you so much of me?
How can I whisper I love yous?
How can I make passionate love to you,
And in the back of my mind be so fearful of the hold you have on my heart?
I love you
I love you
But I
Am
Afraid
Of
Me.
How could I let myself fall like this again?
How could I let you hold me
let you touch me
let you make love to me?
How could I let you utter the words I love you?
How could I let myself believe you?
How could I let myself want you?
How could I let myself need you?
I feel so weak
Loving you makes me feel so weak
How could I let myself give you my all?
How could I let myself
let myself fall in love with you again?
I love you
I love you
And there are no ands ifs nor buts about it
And thats what scares me
That I have allowed myself to love you unconditionally.
I love you
Please dont break me
