Pain or Anger?

Pain or anger?
Which is worse?
Which one is my worst curse?
Which one will kill me?
Which one has imprisoned me?
Which will make me kill?
Which will make me die?
Which will make me fall?
Which will make me cry?

Every thing I've said,
I now reject,
I ask nothing of you,
I don't need your respect.

Please just go away,
And leave me alone.
If you know how I feel,
Then change your tone.

Before I take it out on you,
Before you get my curse,
Before you begin to experience this too.

What will become of this I know not,
Will it be life?
Or will it be a gunshot?

I said myself I'd never kill,
But now I'm thinking of seeking the comfort
Of that dark pill.

If you think I need help
You don't know how right you are
I wonder what would happen,
If I step in front of that car?

Well I better go now,
I hear death calling my name,
Or maybe I'll stay,
And always search for something to keep me sane.