Suicidal tendencies

Better to have loved and lost they say, but it seems like this pain wont ever fade. Now I\'m about pay.
This pedal to the floor is a gun to my head. Not long until I\'m dead. Now all I see is the red.
Free from all this stress. I take a minute to reflect and realize my lifes such a mess. Only wanting to be the best.
Heading towards the cliffs directions. look in the mirror I see my reflection and all my imperfections
The anger starts to build inside of me. All I focus on now is doing the deed. Cant help but think how this came to be.
Screaming at the mirror. How could you act like you didnt care. Eyes are filled with tears.
Pictures of you flood my mind. Thoughts of how your love came from behind. All we needed was time
I Think of your beautiful face. Suddenly filled with so much disgrace. The car starts to move at a slower pace.
Now the only thing that kills my suicidal tendencies is my dependency and all my memoirs .
My love for you will never die. Even thought you always make me cry. Only wanting you to be mine.
Every day I kill myself. I die every day only in stealth. Only thinking about how to take my health
Your are my hate my fears my pain. But your also my love my sanity my reason for breathin.