Pain and guilt

I still remember the day
When you called me in to say
It was over between you.
And I remember that I
Had to make up my mind
Who was I to live with?
Mum or Dad?
I felt so sad
The pain of a heartbreak
Felt like poison of a venomous snake
I was split in two
When I thought of you
My heart was bleeding
I was pleading
But I had to choose
With almost everything to lose
And still today
I have to find a way
To see you both
But still you don't see
The pain and guilt inside me
I try to treat you equally
But still you try to push me
Into going with one of you
My heart is aching
My life keeps breaking
And you are completely clueless
The guilt I feel
Goes round me like a wheel
As I let you down.
I am sorry, it's true
I can't live with only one of you
But no one can help me