My addiction

Cut through the vein
watch it bleed
its hard to believe
this is my pain relief

i know its not right
but its so hard to escape
maybe drowning in my blood
is my only fate

it feels so good
to watch it all flow
emotions with no explanations
i want to let them go

its an addiction
i just cant stop
before the first cut
this i never would have thought

when i see the marks
i want to feel it again
the bittersweet release
of my emotional pain

its consuming my thoughts
and its haunting my dreams
like a fix id do anything to get
using anything, just to feel that scream

its ridiculous what we go through
to get rid of the pain
when theres people who love us
we just stand there naive

so i guess
this is how it will be
an ongoing battle in my mind
for what seems an eternity