Forever ehn never

Its hard to live through each day not knowing if you will be there the next to solve my pains,,, to laugh with me or cry with me,,, I will miss your smile, I will miss your tears and even miss your yell,,, how will I know what to do with out you to wipe away my tears, to hold me, to teach me, to deal with my ups and downs,,, Its just not fair you have to leave so soon,,, You might not get to see me marry or even graduate,,, you arent just my mother, not just someone to protect me, you are my like best friend in more ways than I can say, you have put up with my tears, the many I have shed, you stayed up at night just listening to all that I have said,,, and now even though you look as healthy as can be, the cancer is slowly killing you and you dont know if you will live,,, Ive hardly started high school, the drama has just begun, how will I be able to make it through without you beside me every step of the way,,, when you need help the most there is nothing I can do, but stand along beside you and try to be strong, I only wish the doctors could be wrong,,, i,ll do my best to lift you up and help you fight this war,,, i dont how I will make it if you are ever gone,,,

~~to my beautiful mother
~~ may God watch over you