It's Not Easy

It's not easy
to live a life like mine.
To go through depression,
Live with a disorder
And pretend everything's just fine.

It's not easy
Being super small.
People asking why
Hearing their remarks
When they don't know the whole story behind it all.

It's not easy
Being so sickly thin.
Struggling with eating habits
Trying my best to beat it
But no knowing where to begin.

It's not easy
Lying in bed at night.
Knowing tomorrow will be the same,
My problems will still be there,
Just more battles for me to fight.

It's not easy
To keep everything inside.
To store all my emotions
That are ready to explode
That I've been trying so hard to hide.

It's not easy
To stand in front of a mirror
And look at what I see.
It's really not that easy
To be me.