You have no idea

Can i really tell you how i feel?
Will it take away this pain for real?
Can you really help me through this?
Will it really make things better by telling you my wish?

I think not so i wont waste my breath
Just cut a little deeper and wish for my death
Watch every tear fall onto the floor
Hope to God that when i wake up i won't be here anymore

Don't tell me you have it worse you have no clue
You would do the same thing if you to had gone through
The things I've seen the things i felt
You have no idea how much I've dealt

I survived a gun pointed at my head
The only one who saved me was my one and only friend
I lived a life very poor and afraid
Never knowing if I'd wake up the next day

I cried so hard and begged for life
Now all i want is one cut from a knife
I'm sick of begging so now I'll give in
This game of life i was never meant to win

If you knew what has happened to me and what probably will
You would pick up the knife and try to kill
Put me out of my misery and out of my pain
So many tears come from one simple name

You might not know this person but i surely do
Almost ended my life when i was just two
That was just the beginning but i wont tell anymore
You can't save me i hurt too much right to my core

Yea some have had it worse than me
I realize this... I'm not dumb you see
But what I've gone through I'll never be able to live with
So i pick of the blade and grant my last wish.