Slowly Stalking

The end of another sad and slow night
the end of another day thats repeated
the end of another week that just re-begins
the end of a life that was slowly stalked

' heres to new beginning's ' they say
HAPPY NEW YEAR they all cheer
whats so happy about another new year?
its just another year of tragedies and pain

have you ever lived an entire year
without someone dying or leaving
or pushing you away with no more to say?
one with no drama or traumatic sh it

so each time another new year passes
i can feel the cold and not freeze
and i can bear to smile and laugh
because i can feel it in my blood
that death is slowly stalking me

the chill that fills my body
its deadens my heart beat by beat
but somehow keeps me warm
maybe its a sign, one i think i understand

this year...
this year is my turn...
this year i will be leaving...
this year death will catch me out

(C) Lucy Green