Hide the pain

Again very personal, about a relationship that went wrong.

If someone had told me,
8 months ago,
That you would break,
My heart,
I would of laughed,
But now I see,
And now I ache.

I see you smile,
Inside I cry,
But on the outside,
I'm smiling,
That same smile,
To try and cover,
To try and hide.

Hide the pain,
I won't let you see,
What you are doing,
What you're doing to me.

8 months gone,
Its just too hard,
You're with her,
As if we,
We didn't matter,
Everyday I think about,
What we were.

I don't cry anymore,
Not on the outside,
Never shed a tear,
For what you did,
They all say,
You'll move on,
Not what I want to hear.

I'll hide my wrist,
I won't let you see,
What I am doing,
What I'm doing to me.

I dont want to,
Just move on,
I want you back,
But that won't,
Ever happen,
All I wanted,
Was us on track.

Shut the door,
Leave me alone,
Don't look at me,
Just walk away,
Don't try to help,
Lock the door,
And leave the key.

I'll hide away,
I won't let you see,
What I'm doing,
What I'm doing to me.