The despair that lives in me
Lives deep down inside
It lives there all alone
In this shell, my body, in which it hides
Nobody gets to see it
My friends, my family, they don't know its even there
But it is, let me tell you
Its ripped my soul beyond repair
I'm so clever in the way I hide it
Walking around with this smile upon my face
I'm sure if you met me you'd never know it
That upon my soul is a darkness, one that I cannot erase
This darkness eats away at me daily
Its hunger, never to be satisfied
Until one day, finally I decide to give in
To these wonderful fantasies of suicide
With hope all but abandoned, and all things lost
I decide to give into this monster I call my weakness
But something else is there, something I could never expect
This monster called despair has met my pathetic meekness
And I sit here wondering, What do I do?
Rationalization sets in and I begin to cry
I now know I really have been defeated
I now know I'm too afraid to die
The despair that lives in me
It still hides there, deep out of sight
Because I know that the darkness that consumes me
Has taken all, including my will to fight
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