Not Real

I can't keep doing this anymore
I can't live with the pain
I can't keep getting my hopes up
Only to have them fall again

I don't want to feel this way
I don't want to live a lie
I don't want to chase a dream
Only to catch it and watch it die

Try and tell me you understand
We both know that you don't
Try and say what you think will help
We both know it won't

It's only a hopeless cause now
I'm aware that it won't go
I accept this life of masks
And not letting people know

So what if my heart burns?
So what if sanity breaks?
It's not like anyone will notice
Or try to heal my aches

I'm done trying to fix my life
Only to have it crash
I'm done trying to save myself
Only to add one more slash

I won't tell anyone anymore
I won't let myself feel
I won't drop smile
I'll pretend the pain's not real.