Not letting you go

I love you so much
i cant even begin to say
how every time i see your face
you take my breath away

my love for is like
a drug and I'm addicted
but the fact that you lie
turns my world inside out, constricted

and i find myself choking
on my heart that keeps rising in my throat
you keep telling me you love me
but deep down inside i know you don't

sometimes i find myself screaming
so loud I'm afraid that you might hear
even when you are way long gone
far,far away from here

and this pain sometimes
gets to be just way to much
when everything screams for you
everything begs for your touch

i keep telling myself ill be okay
that you only just on guy
that in only just sixteen
and this pain will pass me by

but for not i think I'm stuck
hung on someone not coming back
and i know that this is my fault
i know that everything you need, i lack

so waking up is getting harder
from the dreams keeping me sane
i find myself constantly drowning
losing myself in all the pain

but i will still hold on
for you are the only thing i know
no matter how thorough the pain
i am not letting you go