Lost Feeling

That single time
I hated so much
Now I'd give anything
For that hidden crutch

Back then I wanted it
To just go away
But now that darkness
I wish it would stay

It was all so familiar
Which makes it good in a way
I miss it so much
But it had to go away

They thought it was for the best
They didn't think any less
But now
For me
It's a single big test.

It wasn't good for me
To feel like that
But now
So much
I long to go back

To feel that dark
The shadow within
That wont of living
Wearing so thin

It's a place I've been
And a place I know
The familiarity
Life seems to just flow