Why I turn to the knife ...

When life gets hard I turn to the knife,

for some reason it's always haunting my dreams,

when I'm at my lowest it's always beside me,

so when life gets hard I turn to the knife.

When I was younger my parents fought,

every night I would hear screaming,

or picture frames breaking, glass shattering,

so when life got hard I turned to the knife.

So as life went on things started to change,

because of my past I was addicted to the knife,

I blame my parents and the people around me,

because when life got hard I turned to the knife.

Now that I'm older the knife is still there,

every time when I cry, when I fight its there,

I don't blame my parents or the people around me, I blame myself,

thats the reason why I turn to the knife.

I would turn to the knife every chance a got,

every time I got my heart broken, every time my parents fought,

no one ever understood why I cut and cut some more,

so as life went on I turned the knife.

I've told many lies that have hurt many people,

when I thought I could trust someone it all went down the drain,

and when I thought I was in love and he broke my heart,

I said fu** it and turned to the knife.

My friends ask me why, they ask me how,

and all I tell them is that it helps with the stress,

yeah sure helps with the scares it leave behind,

so as it gets hard I turn to the knife.

Then one day I got screwed over once again,

my best friend started asking questions,

then she asked me to show her my arms,

when I pulled up my sleeves...just to see her face made me want to die,

thats why I should have turned away from the knife.

If I wanted to I could have stopped,

there were people who cared, who told me to stop,

but because of my stupidity the knife is still there,

thats why I still turn to the knife.

But one of these days I'm gonna get caught in the moment,

and I'm gonna be screwed because I'm gonna slice my veil,

people will ask how I died maybe, if they care,

but because of life being hard I turned to the knife.

So I'm gonna sit in he** and ask myself,

"why didn't I just stop when I had the chance?",

and I'm gonna say because "I never realized how many people cared",

thats why I never turned away from the knife, because I never knew.