Gift

For days; for weeks
i tossed in my sleep.
thinking that you;
were the one.

for months i cried,
empty tears.
none were left,
for my upcoming years.

i saw your gift,
you gave me on loves happy day
in return you got nothing,
no balloons, no parade.

i sat; and i stared
at my untouched gift,
so i started to cry,
i started to miss
[you]

but then i thought,
about how deep my thoughts go,
and i got lost in my mind;
lying on my soft pillow.

i see you now
why don't we speak.
like a memory forgotten,
like a rag on the street.

but why do i care,
what a dumb jock thinks.
ill keep your gift,
& my dignity