Pretending

I'm so sick of pretending, this smile on my face is fake, when i laugh its not real at all, its all an act, so people don't know, how upset and broken i am, i hold it all in, until I'm all alone lying in my bed, no one around to see my tears but God, i cant let anyone find out, i dont want anyone to see, all this pain i have inside, no one can know not even him, the one who caused all this pain, he can never know, i will hide it all inside, until the day that i die, i will take all this pain, with me to my grave, but I'm afraid that may not happen cause this is too much pain for me to hold inside for to much longer, I'm about to burst, i just hope that when i do, it wont be in front of you, i don't want you to see all this pain i have or the tears running down my face, all i want him to see is the fake smile on my face and hear my laugh that is not real at all, so for him I'm going to just keep pretending!!!