I'm here looking out my window..
knowing you'll be home from work soon..
watching the clock as its raining..
its now half 6 and you should have ended at half 5pm..
looking down to my mobile phone as i see its lite up by a phone call.
sighing that i still haven't heard from him..
and its my best Friend calling me..
answering while glassing out at the rain..
listening to my music..
hearing My friends voice all croaky..
my tummy goes all funny..
like its nervous or something..
hearing in her voice something is wrong..
hearing her talk so slowly..
as I'm trying to ask her is everything ok..
the first thought i had is something has happened to him..
everything seems to be going so slowly..
asking her again what is wrong..
she tells me she has something bad to tell me..
and Ive gotta sit down!
slowly starting to panic..
she tells me my friend and her boyfriend has past away..
the tears streamed out my eyes..
like the rain on the windows..
to being able to catch my breath i fell to my knees..
in disbelief..
not really thinking about anything..
only seeing his face in my mind!
hearing her crying in my ear..
i dropped the phone and picked up my keys with my phone..
ran down stairs then out to my car..
the rain pouring down on me..
the tears still streaming down my cheeks..
getting wetter and wetter as i were trying to unlock my car..
the keys wouldn't go in..
falling to my knees again sobbing my heart out..
feeling Ive failed him..
Ive failed myself..
holding my head in my hands..
my heart pounding..
sobbing My heart out..
gripping hold of my belongings..
as i heard him come running over to me..
then getting hold of me and holding me so tight..
hearing him telling me its all gonna be alright..
gripping him tighter and tighter as i cried my eyes out on his shoulder..
letting My boyfriend hold me till i stopped..
hearing him tell me that my friend called him telling him..
telling him he needs t get to me..
there he is holding me..
as soon as i saw him i felt safe..
felt everything will be ok..
thank god he was here..
holding me all night until i fell asleep...
my boyfriend who i do adore and trust..
my true feelings and it was all a dream..
(hi everyone i know this is bit strange but my mate is actually v v v ill and this dream could be the out come for him... it was a dream i had the other night and its scary.. in so many ways...)
