Thanks but your not worth my tears

Its like I'm lost again..
lost in that dark world i was once before..
that i had buried years ago..
thinking i was over it all...
accepting what happened..
getting rid off them demeans that were in my life..

its like I'm lost again..
standing in the pouring rain..
with tear in my eyes...
remembering what went on..
the thoughts i Had before the operation and after..
memories i wish that weren't brought back up again..

its like I'm all alone again...
feeling like no one understands..
feeling that feeling why me??
feeling that pain and sadness..
but also strength and anger..

its like I'm lost in a maze..
a maze i can only get myself out off..
no one can see me or hear me..
no one can find me..

all these feelings come to the surface again..
all because after 10years..
you wont leave me alone..
your still a bully and you always will be..

thanks for making me feel all that again..
when Ive put it behind me..
thanks for making me feel crap...
thanks for making me cry again..

like i said your still a bully..
and bullies are cowards!!!!
your not worth my tears!

*HI EVERYONE - THANKS FOR READING AND PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS.. I WAS ILL NEARLY 10 YRS AGO AND I GOT BULLIED FOR IT.. A GIRL WHO BULLIED ME TRIED TO DO IT AGAIN THIS WEEK AT OUR AGES (23YRS) AND IT ISN'T NICE.. THE THINGS SHE DID I WONT SAY BUT IF YOU KNOW OFF SOMEONE OR YOU ARE BEING BULLIED.. TELL YOUR PARENTS! PLEASE DON'T SAY I CANT COZ IT WILL UPSET THEM I'M JUST PROTECTING THEM BECAUSE THEY WILL HELP YOU.. DON'T DO WHAT I DID COZ IF I HAD TOLD MY MUM EVERYTHING THEY DID TO ME THEN THAT SITUATION WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED!! PLEASE DON'T SUFFER IN SILENCE SPK UP!*