My Ex Terah...

Oh my beloved Tarah...
How I wish you were to read these words
You have made the biggest impact within me
My beloved Tarah, A memory now to be...

You were one of the most caring human beings...
A creature God is proud to have made
It was an honor to be with you
How I wish you were true...

I remember that night on the phone
how a treasure that 5 hour moment
The souls connected upon our voices
As we discussed our future Choices...

My God...
I shall never forget that moment
When I told you my emotions toward you
And when your emotions were felt the same, How my heart flew

Night after night, like a romantic story.
We learned about each other, our emotions, fears, hopes.
I trusted you in every inch of my heart, you were my dream...
My desire, my life... My soul ... for so it would momentarily seem

You were the first girl I have fallen "In" love with.
I though we were meant to be ... like every teen blinded fool
A month passed with a bliss i have never felt before
I settled... Thinking she is my last... No more moving on anymore...

I remember... a week passed ... no contact, no messages
No words, no reason, no connection...
I called to see what was wrong with my angelic soul
I felt your tears upon the line as my heart tore a hole...

I remember that conversation like a scar upon my heart
"What's wrong my love? Are you o-kay???"
"No""Am I still your boyfriend?""I don't know..."
Upon that answer... My heart has fallen to the 7 layers hell below...

I talked to your cousin, another boyfriend she says you have
I saw your web page... The white boy ... who's face never forgotten.
I called in tears, hoping for an answer, A REASON, WHY?
I had to find out why, a reason, I had to try...

I male answered... The most painful words I was not ready to receive...
"Tarah does not want to talk to you,
don't call this number ever again" are the words ... that made my knees fell
The words... That made my heart scream in agony and yell

Never have I cried in public. It was not possible.
Yet in front of hundreds, in that moment...
The torture was immense... As my first tear falls upon the dirt
Never, ever, will I forget that immense hurt...

Till this day, I have never gotten over her.
I vow I have made in that 5 hour conversation,
"I shall always love you my love,*no matter what* that's my vow"
A promise, To break, I shall not allow...

2 Years since I made this promise. Yet not forgotten.
She *meant* a lot to me..
We don't talk anymore
It isn't what it used to be before...

Memories...
All I have...
I know she's been through Tough emotional pain
And i know the our pain's are not the same

Still i hope she finds the one
She is a caring, beautiful creature
I given her something permanent
And I do not, And never shall...
Regret it...