I smiled because i loved you

I smiled because i loved you
and never wanted to let you go
you told me not to worry
you'd never leave me alone

i fell when you left me
and had no one to help me up
i cried because i missed you
and felt like giving up

i cut because i alone
and needed an escape
believing i would get better
almost made the pain seem fake

i left this world to forget you
and make the pain go away
knowing that i lost you
gave me a reason not to stay