Miscarriage - A mother's Grief

The smile on my face now
is nothing but fake,
Since my foe, miscarriage,
my baby did take.
I held it inside me
My boy or my girl.
And now it has left me
My soul's in a whirl.
I cannot be sure now
Just how I should feel.
I wish this would vanish
And my heart would heal.
I know it has happened
Yet it still isn't real,
That feeling I had
When my baby I could feel.
It was meant to be different
Our family complete.
But now all I'm left with
Is sadness to beat.
You still were my baby
Although you didn't see
The joys we hoped to share
My baby and me.
We wanted you so much
Bundle of joy
How do we live without you
My girl or my boy?
Nothing will change it
That you lived in me.
You were a someone
Only our hearts could see.
We promise to think of you
Each day of each year.
And remember the moment
Our joy turned to tears.
Whatever the future
Holds out in its hand
My baby you were
And I understand
That life is so precious
A gift to us all
That even was given
To you, though so small.
A piece of my heart
Was stolen that day.
Nothing will bring back
The baby I crave.