Broken Heart

Rehab is a place for my mom to see how much her drugs have affected me.
She think that i don't see the lies, but I see right through her crying eyes.
Sometimes I wonder if she'll ever get well, but it's one of those games where you can never tell.
Sometimes I wonder if she'll ever stop the lies, but it's hard to tell from the tears I've cried.
Sometimes she has just one desire even if it's setting my heart on fire.
It's hard to know she causes so much pain and the stuff you lose you may never regain.
Even though I can't make things right it's hard for me not to cry every night.
Sometimes she has nothing to lose, but when it comes to choices she has nothing to choose.
Sometimes there are days where I want to die, but I have to let those slip right by.
Sometimes I feel like my heart has bled even if it's just something she said.
Sometimes all she does is fight even if someones trying to make things right.
Sometimes I don't know why I feel so sad, because i know that i always have my dad.
Sometimes I know that I have to be strong even though she might not live that long.
Sometimes it's hard for me not to cry these tears especially when I've been doing it all these years.
Sometimes i wonder if she really loves me, because my broken heart is something she can't see.
Someday I know this will be in the past, but for right now it's just gonna have to last.
Sometimes she wants to push everything aside, but all she can do is run and hide.
Sometimes the greatest gift from above is a wonderful daughter for a mother to love.
So all I want is for to be there for me so she can set my broken heart free.