A Sad Realization

It's a big eye opener
The razor glides across my skin
Not noticing what I've done until it's over.
My flesh spreads apart and my vein is visible.

Rushing to put pressure on it
My god, what have i done?
Why have i begun to stoop so low
That even the dirt is judging me?

Crying.

Realizing.

Panicking.

What could of happened to make me do this?
Nothing could of been so bad
That i forget my surroundings and attempted to throw my life away
Why would i do this to myself.

I sit there crying for what feels like forever.
Lifting, and noticing the bleeding has slowed down.
Wiping my eyes with my hand.
Wondering what i've turned into.

Confusion.

Depression.

Self-hatred.

I never realized everything i had until the following morning.
Everyone wanted to let me know that they cared.
And although i wanted to reply with a simple 'I love you'
I couldn't.
The words would choke up inside my throat.
Not allowing me to speak, or breathe.
They would just simply slide back into my stomach.
Where they still linger.

I never realized that everyone needed me...

...just as much as i needed them.