I am not sure....

Beautiful sadness, you give me pain
you hurt me so much within
you made me go insane
with the obsession of being thin

Beautiful depression, you make me bleed
you are the keeper of my soul
I cut myself to fulfill your needs
to make you complete and whole

Beautiful pain, you have no heart
I feel that every time I cry
and I know that if we ever part
we would both surely die

Beautiful death, you are what I long for
please, take away my life
don't let me live like this anymore
let me cut myself with your knife

Beautiful heaven, you're waiting for me
I'll soon be coming home to you
you will set my broken soul free
and your Angel will guide me through