Missing you

As I sit flopping through the pages
Of my last few weeks,
I see the changes
You made to me.

When you were here
I couldn't identify my feelings,
But now you are don't
They are crystal clear.

A flow of sadness and happiness
Flows through my contracted veins.
My heart pumps feelings
Which rips me apart.

I don't know if it is love.,
But it is something new and peculiar.
It makes me smile,
But frown at the same time.

But since you aren't near,
I hear the clock ticking
I feel the sun burning,
I need you, I want you.