Do you ever feel like completely changing yourself?
taking off all the make-up and all the nice clothes
forgetting about everything and everyone
not caring what others think
everyday i go through the halls of my schools putting on an act
making everyone believe i am happy
and i must be a pretty good actress
because they ALL believe me
nobody would even think how much i hurt
they don't know that behind my smile i am dying inside
they do not take the time
as long as i look happy to them, i am happy
life goes so fast nobody take the time to slow down and get to know people
they are so consumed with their lives they forget about everyone else's
I'm not just saying everyone else does it, because i do it to
we are so tied up with our troubles, its hard to deal with anyone else's
i just wish someone would help me though
i wish somebody would realize I'm hurting
I'm not the kind of person that just opens up to anyone and tells them my feelings
no, I'm the complete opposite
i keep them locked up inside
theres a point when there is so many feelings it just eats you up
and I'm at that point
if someone took the time to talk to me
i would tell them how i feel
but nobody has taken the time to do that
maybe its just that i haven't given them the time
i wish that even if i put a wall up
they will break it down
i wish they would care enough about me that they would do anything
but so far nobody has cared enough
I'm just hoping that someday somebody wont be fooled by my smile
and they will realize something is wrong
but until that day I'm just going to walk through the halls acting like I'm happy
fooling EVERYONE into thinking I'm OK
