The me they see

Here we go again...
Another hopeless day
Just one out of many
When will they go away?

I'm so tired of feeling bad
I wish to leave it all
Go somewhere far away
And for once, not feel so small

Aren't there others like me?
Who hide behind their smile
Wanting someone to understand them
If only for a while

I want so bad to share my pain
All the things I feel inside
Just wear my heart upon my sleeve
And never have to hide

The truth is that will never happen
People like the me they see
They don't care if it's just a front
And it's easier to just let it be

So inside I slowly deteriorate
And become just a shell
A shell of who i used to be
And people think that "all is well"

They will never truely know me
I guess it's just their loss
Too bad they will miss out on seeing
A beautiful yet troubled soul, free of cost