Confused and Stuck At a Crossroad

I am slowly losing myself
Torned by my love for you.
With all this chaos running amongst us
I'm confused about what i should do.

My love for you
Has always been strong.
Despite all the pain
That I've felt inside for so long.

My heart has been beaten by the games
And is bleeding from all the lies.
My eyes are swollen from the tainted tears
That i stayed up for days to cry.

Confusion sets in
Followed by the misery.
Do I somehow stay and work it out?
Or go and set myself free?

In a way I'm scared
Because I don't know how to deal.
And in a way I'm numb
Tied down by all that I feel.

I've lost who I am
Somewhere along our roller coaster of love.
I'm not the same old me
I don't like who I've become.

I'm stuck between a rock and hard place
And i can't seem to find my way out.
Choosing between keeping you or finding myself
Is what this whole issue is all about.

I have to make a decision
And I have to make it fast.
If not I'll lose even more than before
And I'll forever stay stuck in the past.