Im sorry i made you miss me Dad

I heard you were in town the other day
And you didn't even try to see me
I always thought it wouldn't bother me
But deep down it really got to me

I know i am guilty of not making an effort
But Dad you have hurt me
You said you'd do things and then not do them
And you lied to me

But i realised that i don't make it easy for you
And that I'm hurting you too
So Dad I'm sorry
I know you love me and i love you too

It won't be easy for me to let you in
And really get to know me again
I just ask you not to force it
Just let whatever happens, happen

I almost feel like a stranger to you
And thats not how families are meant to be
So I'm sorry I've made you miss me
I was doing what i thought was best for me

I know you've missed me
I've heard it in your voice
So i hope this can be a small beginning
To something good