Courage to Cry

Sometimes I seriously considered
Taking all of this away
Fading from the world
Going to a better place

But then I'd stop to think
About what my friends would do
If I committed suicide
To escape the world I knew

Then the guilt entered
That was selfish, it was wrong
I couldn't do that to everyone
They would break if I were gone

So I stayed here on the planet
Feeling noble at the fact
That I made myself a promise
On which I did not go back

I promised I would find a way
To make myself truly happy
Whether love or just a friendship
I would need someone to help me

But I know that I can do this
If I give it a real try
I'll gather up the courage
To at last break down and cry