Close The Door.

For so long I have been trying to fix things.
I am so tired, and alone.
I have done so many messed up things to people I love.
Not because it is intentionally but because I do not know what to do exactly.
Two people I care about so much are in love with me.
But the feelings are not neutral, or at least I do not think they are.
Sometimes I want one, and but not the other.
Or sometimes I want the other, but do not want him.
They both despise each other for the sake of wanting the same thing.
But what makes me so special to make this much conflict in their lives?
The answer is still not found.
I am searching but still no luck.
I just want both happy, as well as myself.
But the only way that is possible is if I just close the door on them.
The door of love.
The door we did not choose to open.
But the door that opened by accident.
Now the door must be closed and locked.
And the key must be destroyed.
The sad thing is that the key is friendship.

Love is blind; friendship simply closes its eyes.

We all have to sacrifice to be happy.
And this sacrifice is friendship,
Not because I chose it to be, but because this is the only way.

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