Thinking about someone who i shouldnt be thinking of..

I don't want to think about what could have been or how it would have felt or the way u would have looked at me because there's no point since you're with her u look at her the way u were supposed to look at me she's living my fairytale and all I can do is watch as she's living her happily ever after all i can do is cry

I wish that u would leave her and come to me because no matter how bad i try it just seems like I can't move on and it hurts so bad to see u with her and it seems like no matter what i do I'm still stuck on u and today as i saw u kissing her i held myself from crying and i was surprised that i was able to hold a smile on my face i was surprised that i could laugh even though it was the hardest thing Ive ever had to fake i wanted to be U r first but instead u chose her and shes probably more prettier then me and much better then me and it kills me SO bad to think that while I'm thinking of you, you're probably thinking of her.