I'll pretend im in love with you

Let me pretend I'm in love with you,
let me make you think these twisted words are true,
I'll mess with your head and toy with your heart,
eventually without meaning to I'll rip you apart,
i won't get attached,
but you'll think i am,
chances are you won't know where i stand,
this isn't my intentions,
i just make some bad decisions,
I'll lie awake in bed at night,
and slowly become more disconnected,
as i think of my past life,
i want it to be different,
so I'll push away love as i start to fall,
and won't let there be an "us" at all,
i try to let go of my truth,
try to forget my past youth,
this happens all in my head,
hidden behind my eyes,
so you'll believe all of my beautiful lies,
i got hurt, and i don't mean to hurt you too,
but I'll still pretend I'm in love with you.