The Only Wish

If it where up to me
no one would care
no one would love
no more emotions
just a hollowed out life

my life is not that way
and i have become what i always hated
i wish i could stop
and end what i am

blades and blood
only cover it up
drugs only numb it
friends make it worse
and family just kills my soul

the only answer is death
but i can't pull the trigger
i can only wish
and wish is what i will do