I sit here abandon,
dazing at my computer screen.
Tears start falling -
the other side's grass looks so green.
Breathing in deep,
heart barley beating.
Because it's too sore,
from all it's bleeding.
Reminiscing about better days,
when things were different,
you had different ways...
Reading old emails pretending its real -
you've hurt me so bad,
i no longer wanna feel.
Just the thought of better days makes me numb,
the more i read -
the more i think of that gun.
But the hardest part,
isn't even how its been...
Its the fact i know things will never be that way again
