Where Were You Mom?

Why don't you leave me alone
just get out of my face
i can do this on my own

i wonder why you never cared
why i always felt lost
and why you were never there

it was hard growing up, without any love
i was always thrown in the dirt
when push came to shove

i learned to be strong, my heart became cold
the years went by fast
and i now feel so old

i don't know who you are, but i wish that i did
where were you when i was growing up?
when i was just a little kid?

i was your daughter, now i don't feel the same
i don't think you know me
and for that, you're the one to blame

all you did was hurt me, and told me i was not aloud to tell
while you drank all your sorrows away
i was suffering through hell

i always wish that you were there when i needed you
to help me with my struggles
and all that i was going through

do you know that now I'm your messed up little girl?
crying herself to sleep
in her messed up, little world?

I can't stand this I'm done, oh how i hate to love you
why do i still, anyways?
after all you've put me through

why am i even writing this? it's such a waste of time
i guess cause you'll know i miss you mom
if you ever read this rhyme.

please r/c