I used to

I used to hang on your every word
every syllable, every bit
I used to think you knew it all
turns out you dont know shit

I used to believe in happy endings
now I kinda don't.
I used to think I'd be okay
but now I know I won't

I used to smile
and it would be real
but now I just smile
to hide how I feel

I used to be able
to sleep when night came
but now there's just crying
every night its the same

I used to need you
and you used to understand
but youre not you anymore
so I let go of your hand

I used to not worry
as much as I do
I used to be different
I used to have you

I used to be in so much pain
there was so much I couldnt stand
I was slowly going crazy...
and I think....that I still am