Its A Wonder..

I pull my hair
i claw at my skin
i bring up everything
my stomach brings in
i cut my wrists
i bite my tongue
i haven't smiled in days
nor have i talked to anyone
I'm so alone
so very alone
and i just wish i wasn't..
i close my eyes
i plug my ears
i sing to myself
to drown out my cares
to lock out my fears
to trap the rares
the rare memories
of happy days
when i was with him...
i push in my eyes
i forget my thoughts
i walk so slow
my feet tied to invisible rocks
my throat un-naturally dry
my tear ducts disable my ability to cry
my head a throbbing pain I'm used to
my heart broken and left by you
my soul taken
buried in a hidden grave
to life i am tied too
an unwanted slave
and the mind that is half gone
praying for the day to come
whispered in my skull and said
its a wonder you're not fu**ing dead...