A poem for my friend

I'm sick of all the heartache
I'm sick of all the pain
Inside me it's not sunshine
But constantly rain.
I keep on thinking my life will get better
But that happens only with time
But my life is like on big obstacle course
With a rock at the end thats to big to climb.
I keep trying to have a better life
But drugs always get in the way
And I have become a shadow to my friends
And to me they have nothing to say.
My life you see hasn't been perfect
And it seems that I'm stuck in a bind
And a couple of years ago I had to move
And leave my best friend Sasha behind.
My mom used to be into drugs really bad
And her ex boyfriend Dennis was too
Then one night they got into a fight
And thats when they announced they were through.
So we ended up moving in with some friends
Which lasted a couple of weeks
And I was stuck at a house with a boy and a girl
And a grandfather who rarely speaks.
So as you can see my life was shitty
And I was losing my very best friend
But keep on listening to my story please
Because we are not quite near the end.
So after the I moved in with my gram
And I had little freedom at all
And I felt like I had been convicted
And stuck behind a prison wall.
And there I had a lonely life
And I basically just sat at home
And I couldn't really call anyone
Because there was no long distance on the phone.
Then one day my mom found a place
Not to far away
And I remember feeling so happy
Because we finally had our own place to stay.
So there we lived in this tiny place
But I was happy so it was all good
And there my mom tried to give up on drugs
Because she knew in her heart that she should.
But then sadly her attempt failed
And she started on pills once again
And it broke my heart because we were falling apart
And she was my other best friend.
So I kept trying to help her
But it never worked out
And she was a druggie
I knew without doubt.
But a couple of years we moved once again
And this was the final time
And that rock that was once stuck in the way
Was for some reason easy to climb.
Then one day I met a guy
Who took my breathe away
And I have I fell so in love with him
And I hope with me he stays.
For if I ever lose him
I don't know where I'd be
For he makes my life so perfect
And he means the world to me.
And now me and Sasha talk again
After all these years
And the fact that we are still real close
Sometimes brings me to tears.
But now my life is perfect
And I am happy once again
For now I have everything I need
And boyfriend and my friend.