I'm Done

Every time things start to look up for me and I start to feel happy life kicks me in the side to make me fall back to the ground. I dont think I'll ever be happy....What did I do to deserve this punishment? I lost the love of my life, everything I lived for was ripped from my grasp. My heart was shattered all my dreams crumbled with nothing but dust to represent what was once there, so alive.

I met someone who made me feel a bit better, a bit more alive. He showed me affection I had lost and longed for. As it turned out all the affection was false, nothing was real. It was all a lie, a false impression. A false act of showing me exactly what I wanted, just to keep me around. I feel used and hurt but I'm mad.....I'm furious. As if everything in my life wasn't enough screwed up already.

Everything ends up this way for me. You know what? I'm through with this, I cant take no more. I'm done. Some people are really low. I'm not taking any more chances. I've lost hope and any little bit of trust i still held for anyone.

I'll stay stuck in the painful place I call my mind...and torture myself eternally, never will I open up to anyone again-------