Everything

They always told me that everything happens for a reason,
But I just can't see the value behind this one.
How is the pain I get from seeing you together ever going to help me?
Yes, this has happened before,
It seems to be the story of my life.
I sit back and watch as my best friend seems to win the heart
Of every boy I ever liked.
But somehow, this time is different.
I never felt about anyone the way I felt,
(And still do), feel about you.
The feeling I got from you was like nothing I'd ever felt.
Sure, there had been times before that I'd thought I'd been
'in love',
But nothing compares to what I got from you.
It was like something had taken over my entire body,
And I was no longer in control of what I was doing
Saying, feeling, acting, thinking, wanting, needing...
It was like you were a drug,
And I was hooked.
I never thought it was possible to feel so strongly about someone,
But you proved me wrong.
I had always been the cynical one,
The one saying it was impossible to fall in love at this age.
I had lost faith in the idea of love itself,
And I was convinced it would never happen to me.
But then you can along and my world was changed forever.
I was the happiest I had ever been,
And you were the reason.
Everything I felt somehow related back to you,
And when we talked, it almost felt like something
Was there for you too.
Those three, short weeks were the happiest weeks
Of my life.
Although I tried to convince myself you didn't feel the same,
A part of me still believes you did.
We were so close for the months before it,
And I honestly don't think you would have said those
Things to me had you not meant them.
I think you felt it too.
That night was the most horrible, wonderful thing
That ever happened to me.
And yes, still being in love with you hurts
more than anything in the world.