I Always Wonder Why...

I always wonder why
People can't talk without using lies
They can't stop decieving
One lie causes a hundred to come after

I always wonder why
I have to live every second of this life
There's always hundreds of sad moments
That make me forget that there are happy ones

I always wonder why
There's so little I want in life
So little it doesn't even matter
As if commiting suicide will help

I always wonder why
My life seems such a big mistake
And if I was to die right now
No one would really care

I always wonder why
I always feel like everyone around is so fake
So much lies that would fill the biggest lake
Now My life is what I'm trying to take

I always wonder why
I tell my mom to tell my friends I'm sleeping
Everytime they call, I want to run and hide
If I hear another word from them, I'll explode

I always wonder why
I love to be alone, lost in my thoughts
Away from everyone I know
Not pretending and forcing smiles all the time

I always wonder why
it feels like I have no body to trust
I say so many people are my friends
its only on the outside, I hate pretending to love

I always wonder why
People think they can hurt without geting hurt
when they say something that hurt you
Your just going to take it and shut your mouth

I always wonder why
Everytime I'm hurt, I want to release it
Using a blade and cutting through the skin
But now I have to stop and control myself

I always wonder why
No matter what I do and no matter where I am
My thoughts are always there, haunting my head
The same way a ghost haunts a house.